calm and relax...

Beside my mom being hear to support me and see how hard it is to be there in the NICU... OK Faith is was very relax day not allot of fuss, she lose her weight today she was 870 grams yesterday to know 852 grams today hope she stop loosing any more, OK she will get her PIC Line (Percutaneous Intravenous Catheter)out tomorrow

New room!

Sorry guys it to busy with Faith
OK Faith is on a new side of the NICU she have her own room...she doing mush better with new drugs to help her longs, eating allot so I just pray she get bigger and come home soon...the nurse have being better and nice is getting easy to be in the NICU I guess is not getting so sad to see her in there and also she got bigger breathing tube and she not using allot of the machine with that and they trying to get her ready to get her off the ventilator soon. OK Faith is 1lb 14 .5 oz still 14inch long

Good News!

Well today I got good news from the Dr. did another sonogram and have seen that the bleeding in the brain has stopped. And know Faith feeding has increase 2ml.

stop the hair lost!

OK,how many times does it take to have a picc line when she doesn't have hair to shave off...trust me, the other side is shaved off to

I'm just a Girl

OK today the Dr. said that Faith is looking good that she progressing slowly but in a good shape. Her lungs look clear in the x-ray. The only complain I get most of the time from the nurses is her attitude. She hate to be touch and today she was one of does day that nobody could touch her not even me she didn’t wanted me to talk to her either.. oh well she is a girl after all I just seeing a preview of those teenage years...I wanted a girl for sure and I got the big wish of trouble. But I still love my baby

the day after the surgery

well she heavy sedated... but the surgery had some complication so lungs are getting sicker the machine that supposed to helper is making tiny holds in her lungs so thy started giving her steroid to rapidly growth of her lungs..but also the med for her blood pressure is also can damage her liver...she have lung disease...she still have long road head and only God know what he have in store for us.. i just hope is all good

surgery day!

OK today surgery went well she only have some complication her blood pressure drop...and her right lung collapse again... well thy give her med to stop it all the problem the surgery cost and she doing much better...still heavy sedated and Paine killer to have her relax..she so strong i hope she keep it up until she comes home

schedule hart surgery

OK today we decided that Faith will have hart surgery tomorrow to repair her PDA. so she can breath better not have so much problem with her lung being damages from the PDA( Paten Ductus Arteriosus) so her surgery is early in the morning after all she need this i just hope everything goes OK! I got faith that will go good and she will get better.

When the bad news will ever end.

OK! um i know it will a roller coaster ride with having a preemie baby but not like this... a morning wake up call that it star it like this soon i guest to the hospital um hear come the bad news 1st one her long collapse last night so she got another breathing machine so she got 2 breathing machine to helper breath well everything was going OK in the afternoon she got x-ray to see her long that came better than last time but the Dr. wanted to see how her hart was going um i seat there wile there doing echo of sonogram of her hart i had to wait 3hr for that the Dr. tell me she need surgery soon...i just need a miracle

ok call from the hospital

well it wasn't a good day for faith she got infection possibility pneumonia in top what she already have (IVH) level 2 and spinal tap she stop breading on her own know the machine is doing all the work for her and her right long is getting in large and all the medication she going to be on can make liver damage in the process and still vessel of the hart(PDA) haven't close yet so she water coming to her long....that was very scary talk with the Dr. plus wend you get a call like that your hart drops to the floor specially wend yesterday i got to holder for the the first time.. i just pray to God that this should will pass 2...so tomorrow hopefully will be better day!

not this

Is running to the hospital to see my baby after hospital call to say she not doing so good today...pls God bless her that she can pass this 2

ok test result....

well i guess is a good thing that was this for know.. intraventricular hemorrhage.(IVH) well they say the one she have wish stage 2 of it is good one to have..but a bad news have all ways good news i got to hold her for the first time..soon i will put a pic.

Faith update

OK.. yesterday was faith 1st wk...in the world she holding her own she breading mostly on her own only 25% of oxygen she using from respiratory machine she still gaining wight know she 1lb 7oz still long.. big hand and feet...diffidently not me i got small feet and small fingers...well she so cute like to giver back rub...still crying allot sorry my hormones still not quit back...but i know i just have to have Faith! this the song i dedicate to my baby girl! HAVE I TOLD YOU LATELY THAT I LOVE YOU.
know I'm just waiting for test result to see anything gone wrong

Is hard time for Faith

well being long 7 days i wish this wasn't happening this way i love to have her but not this soon to see her it break my hard thinking that if i did something different she will be her this early specially this much in pain and to much for her to improve and wait until December until she can come home , i cry every day i live the hospital specially nicu....i just fell that I'm going go crazy living her behind; she so small and have allot of challenge ahead of her to go through all the test and poking on her see her that she fighting back to be hear and she so strong but...it hurt being a mother right know...my time is all on her i love see in her and reading the book of Mormon to calmer down ....God have giving me test i just hope i don't fell...is struggle to keep it together.